With clear surprise in his eyes. Even though there might have been the faint hope that Kieren would understand, rather than judge him, the possibility did not even exist in Billy's mind that the other would understand because he's like this too. It's not like Billy imagines he's the only man ever with his sort of inclinations - even putting Hickey aside, he's not even the only one on the expedition - but it's surprising all the same to learn that Kieren is the same. That he coincidentally ran into yet another one.
.. the surprise slowly softens. There's some relief. Maybe something glad, too. ]
I hope you can reach a good decision too. [ It's said quietly. Billy doesn't do emotions and vulnerability all that well - not out of any sense of ego, but more just the fact that he's never been in a position to be safely vulnerable. It's what happens when you have to tuck everything about yourself far down.
But he's clearly trying here. ]
You should not just have to wallow in what has been. Despite everything that happened.. You deserve happiness too,-- [ A slightly awkward pause, and then-- ] .. Kieren.
[ He's so not good with first names and being informal, but!! Trying!! ]
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With clear surprise in his eyes. Even though there might have been the faint hope that Kieren would understand, rather than judge him, the possibility did not even exist in Billy's mind that the other would understand because he's like this too. It's not like Billy imagines he's the only man ever with his sort of inclinations - even putting Hickey aside, he's not even the only one on the expedition - but it's surprising all the same to learn that Kieren is the same. That he coincidentally ran into yet another one.
.. the surprise slowly softens. There's some relief. Maybe something glad, too. ]
I hope you can reach a good decision too. [ It's said quietly. Billy doesn't do emotions and vulnerability all that well - not out of any sense of ego, but more just the fact that he's never been in a position to be safely vulnerable. It's what happens when you have to tuck everything about yourself far down.
But he's clearly trying here. ]
You should not just have to wallow in what has been. Despite everything that happened.. You deserve happiness too,-- [ A slightly awkward pause, and then-- ] .. Kieren.
[ He's so not good with first names and being informal, but!! Trying!! ]
Let's find the good in our second chances.