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rei ayanami ([personal profile] alef) wrote in [community profile] singillatim 2023-09-20 01:53 pm (UTC)

cw: suicidal thoughts

[ He did tell her about frostbite. Maybe that's why Rei is receptive to his coaxing. Maybe it's because she has nothing else better to do. Thomas' voice sounds dull and far-away, as if numbed by the cold. The numbness isn't a terrible thing, actually, but the shivering is awfully inconvenient.

Rei takes off her socks as instructed, then wrings them out in a little puddle beside her. This leaves her toes exposed, but Rei remembered Thomas' attempt to be funny, so she slips the mittens off her hands and wraps them around her feet as much as she can.

(She remembers how he laughed. Rei thought about it for a long while, afterwards. She wondered if she had made a joke, and if so, whether she could make one again.)

Still, the warning about frostbite only matters when there is a body worth preserving. And there are so many bodies that look like Rei's. It's important that Thomas knows. It'd be lying if she didn't tell him. And maybe, if she does tell him, he'll leave her be, and she'll submerge herself in the lake for real. ]


There is nothing to freeze. [ Rei looks up at Thomas, her expression as blank and distant as ever. ] I am a copy. I have been replaced. There are spare parts.

[ Here, with Thomas holding onto Rei's sleeve, it's hard not to think about the ghosts in her living room, and what Hickey said about them. ]

I am not real.

[ You possess a false body and a fake soul. Do you know why? ]

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