[ I've hurt people too. It makes Kieren stare with wide eyes. It's so strange, how something can be so different and feel so familiar all at once. It's like the others like Kieren, the ones who act indifferent to their deeds as untreated. It was only survival, they did what they had to, and it's not like they were really themselves, was it? What's the big deal?
It isn't something that sits easily within him. Kieren doesn't buy into that cop-out. He doesn't get a 'get out of jail free card' just because he was rabid. Aren't they better than that? Better than just shrugging off the terrible things? But it makes him wonder. ]
Who did you hurt?
[ It's like he's trying to absolve him, and Kieren only wishes it were as easy as that. It isn't. It couldn't possibly be. But there's so much more to explain to it, and it's so much more than he can't speak of. It isn't actions of a sane person hurting others when he lapses, it's the actions of a wild animal, of some terrible creature driven only by hunger and beyond any kind of thinking. ]
You really don't want that happening. Not this. If— if it happens, I don't think I'll ever come back again. I mean it. If I go, I'm gone. [ There'll be no Neurotriptyline to bring him back. He won't be able to to come back from it, he won't be 'Kieren Walker' any more. ]
And it doesn't matter who it is, I'll hurt anyone. [ He nods to the other. There's desperation in his eyes, in amongst the misery. Kieren doesn't want to hurt him. ] Even you.
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It isn't something that sits easily within him. Kieren doesn't buy into that cop-out. He doesn't get a 'get out of jail free card' just because he was rabid. Aren't they better than that? Better than just shrugging off the terrible things? But it makes him wonder. ]
Who did you hurt?
[ It's like he's trying to absolve him, and Kieren only wishes it were as easy as that. It isn't. It couldn't possibly be. But there's so much more to explain to it, and it's so much more than he can't speak of. It isn't actions of a sane person hurting others when he lapses, it's the actions of a wild animal, of some terrible creature driven only by hunger and beyond any kind of thinking. ]
You really don't want that happening. Not this. If— if it happens, I don't think I'll ever come back again. I mean it. If I go, I'm gone. [ There'll be no Neurotriptyline to bring him back. He won't be able to to come back from it, he won't be 'Kieren Walker' any more. ]
And it doesn't matter who it is, I'll hurt anyone. [ He nods to the other. There's desperation in his eyes, in amongst the misery. Kieren doesn't want to hurt him. ] Even you.