It's a foggy memory to think back on, really. Even if Billy tries, he can't remember exactly why he came back. It had likely just been something instinctive, given just how much he had been running on emotion in that moment. It's all a panicked haze in his mind, especially months later.
He twists his ring a little.
"That fire was not real," he points out, even though it sure felt real in the moment. And even though he isn't sure what would have happened if either of them had stayed behind in the fire. Maybe it really had been possible to die back there. (He doesn't want or care to find out.)
There's a pause, and then added a touch more quietly: "And even though I could not have known back then, maybe a part of me was aware how much less bearable this place would be without you in it."
After all, what are you supposed to do without good company here? Freeze your ass off? Life is only bearable here to Billy thanks to the people around him he actually likes.
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He twists his ring a little.
"That fire was not real," he points out, even though it sure felt real in the moment. And even though he isn't sure what would have happened if either of them had stayed behind in the fire. Maybe it really had been possible to die back there. (He doesn't want or care to find out.)
There's a pause, and then added a touch more quietly: "And even though I could not have known back then, maybe a part of me was aware how much less bearable this place would be without you in it."
After all, what are you supposed to do without good company here? Freeze your ass off? Life is only bearable here to Billy thanks to the people around him he actually likes.