singillatim | (closed) february catch-all;

[ Definitely no vocabulary for bisexuality. It doesn't help that Billy is 100% gay too and can't even imagine what it's like to love a woman or swing both ways.

He does, at least, understand women liking women, though it's surprising to hear that Chloe is like that. Not because of anything about her, but-- what are the odds, right? There were so few gay men back in the Navy, and here he's suddenly running into more and more people who aren't just plainly straight. ]

You are?

[ His voice is soft, like he doesn't want to out her to anyone, even though there's no one within earshot to hear them. The surprise is clearly audible in his tone though. ]

.. we will have to. I have to admit I am rather tired of the way we are treated.

Yeah. I mean, I would never get married, [gross…] but the rest of it.

Let me know how you want to play it and I'll follow your lead. But if you ever want to… talk about it… you can talk to me.

[ Talk about it. With someone who actually understands. He's only ever been able to do so with Hickey, so the thought of doing it with anyone else is kind of wild. ]

I am.. [ Something about him seems to grow a little more shy again. Maybe exactly because he's thinking about this topic. ] I am not even sure I know how to talk about it. I never have-- To anyone else, I mean.

[ Hickey doesn't count if he's Billy's husband, alright. ]

But I suppose then I.. should then admit that is why I asked you about what you two talked about. [ He ducks his head - still seeming flustered, like he can't directly look at her as he talks about this. It feels so weird and vulnerable. ] I am rather worried about him. I don't want him to get involved with anything too dangerous, especially since he has a tendency to do exactly that.

Yeah, I kind of thought so. [In a small, isolated group with a strict hierarchy, where any deviation is harshly punished, who would you even turn to?] But the offer stands, if you ever want to.

[The worry reminds her a little bit of recent comments she’d made to her partner back home about risk-averse adventurers (there are other jobs) but here it's not like they really have a choice.]

Well, if he's got grand plans he hasn't shared them with me. Aside from trying to stock up for newcomers, I guess. You think he’d try to fight that thing?

[ Billy shakes his head.

Without even really having to think. No, Hickey wouldn't. Not personally, anyway. ]

He seems to think we are special. [ Judging by the way Billy says it, he doesn't agree. There's no anger or even annoyance in his voice - more just a lack of passion that betrays it. ] Between that-- that being wanting us gone, and whatever other forces that brought us here in the first place.

[ That much he knows. Hickey outright told him. ]

If that thought would get to his head too much, there is no telling what he might do. Cornelius always works in extremes.

Ohh. [Okay, yeah, maybe she can see that.] Not me, I've already done the special destiny thing and it's only ever made shit worse for me.

[It's so ridiculous to think about how much of what had happened in India was based on some stupid legend about royal bloodlines. What good does any of it do her? What good did it do Asav? He's just as dead in that canyon, in the end.]

We didn't really talk about that much, but we have the same power so maybe he didn't want it going to my head.

[ He exhales a little. It's not a sigh.

(It's definitely a sigh.) ]

I am glad to hear you have a good head on your shoulders, Miss Frazer. [ There are only so many god complexes Billy can deal with at once, okay. And that number is one. He can deal with one at a time, and that's enough!! ]

Trying to ensure Cornelius is not getting himself into trouble is already difficult enough at times. If I had to do the same for another person on top of it, I'm afraid I would start growing grey hairs already.

[ Billy.. Boy.. You have no idea what you're saying. She's just as bad!! You just don't know yet!! ]

Is he really that bad? [Asks the person who is just like him.] I mean, yeah he's kind of mouthy but a lot of guys here are like that.

Yes, he is that bad when it comes to this.

[ Zero hesitation.

Even if Billy cares about a person, he apparently won't hesitate to judge them all the same. Look, if Cornelius didn't get himself into trouble all the time, Billy wouldn't have to be here making this assessment in the first place! ]

You haven't seen what he gets like when he has a plan. Though I won't deny he's intelligent, Cornelius seems to lack a regular person's sense of risk management. [ Which would be one thing all by itself, but the more complicating factor is-- ] And the other people present here from the same expedition as us are without a doubt all too eager to jump onto him the moment they get the opportunity to do so.

Ah. [Yeah, for all his talk about making sure everyone has what they need, Chloe can see that Hickey might not exactly be a 'group cohesion' kind of guy. An outsider in a collective can be quiet and withdrawn like Billy, but they can also be bigger and bolder: 'I'm here, what are you going to do about it?' Even without the survival pressures they'd undoubtedly faced that'll make you enemies.]

Do you think he's like, spoiling for a rematch? He knows they'll go at him if given the opportunity, so he’ll make sure they get it?

[ That is a good question. It's one of those things Billy appreciates about Chloe - she's got a pretty good head on her shoulders, often pointing out things that he hasn't thought of yet himself. Practical things, too, which he can appreciate even more. He looks like he has to really think about that one for a moment. ]

I'm not sure. [ Part of the problem when Hickey can sometimes just.. do stuff impulsively out of nowhere.. ] I suppose I would not put it past him.

[ Especially with tensions between him and the rest and the crew seemingly not having gotten all that much better back home since Billy died. ]

I am sure he carries his own grudges against them. They tried to execute him back home. [ And more than just that, but ironically enough the near-execution feels easier to talk about than Hickey's earlier punishment. ]

[Chloe feels a stab of something - not quite a sympathy, kinship maybe - toward Hickey for that. Lazarevic had almost put her down for stealing from him, hadn't he, and it was only a day before she’d arrived here that she’d been on her knees in that awful little chamber with Asav’s gun against her forehead. If not for Nadine’s quick thinking her blood might have been drained into that aqueduct too; an old-school human sacrifice. What a joke, if Asav’s belief about Chloe descending from the king who’d stopped the practice is true.]

Yeah, I wouldn't blame him for that. No offence, but your whole crew sounds like a powder keg.

Considering I am not part of the powder keg, I won't have to take offense.

[ Or so he likes to believe, anyway. Whenever there's trouble being caused, it clearly is never Billy's fault. Suggesting the mutiny in the first place doesn't count, that was just being practical!

Still, there's a slight turn to Billy's eyebrows, a little like a frown, that indicates it's on his mind all the same. That he can't brush it off that easily - mostly because of his entanglement with Hickey. ]

.. things should be fine here, as long as no one does anything ridiculous. [ A pause, like he's a little more unsure whether or not to express the second part since it feels a little more personal, but.. ] I don't want my second chance at life to be ruined due to them not knowing how to behave.

[ Mostly the rest of the crew, really. Billy actually feels like Hickey has been.. relatively well behaved by his standards. Mostly. ]

[This is why she worries about you, Billy! It's absolutely understandable why he wants to, but walking around openly as the gay husband of a guy who is public enemy number one to a bunch of not only Victorians but guys in the British Royal Navy seems like more powder in the keg to Chloe.]

Ah. Which is why you're concerned that he might do something ridiculous.

[At least if it comes from the others and not them they can fight back a bit.]

If anyone here is going at you, you can come to me. I don't think I have much of a reputation to tank with those guys anyway.

[Not just because she's a woman, either. She wouldn't be surprised if some of these guys had served in campaigns in India.]

[ Chloe isn't even the first person here who's practically offered to protect him, but.. It's surprising all over again. Considering how heavily Billy relies on a world view of you only having yourself to count on when things get hairy, of believing that other people won't care, it stuns him into a momentary silence when Chloe goes right against that here.

He doesn't even know how to put into words what he feels about that. Billy isn't practised enough with it.

Maybe it's why he doesn't start on that first. Instead, after that slight pause, he looks over at her to carefully ask: ]

What would you do in that case?

[ Look, he definitely thinks Chloe is fierce. He's not even implying she couldn't do anything against people who'd harass him-- maybe he's more curious what she'd have in mind. ]

If they just want to talk, I know lots of ways to tell people to shut up. If they want to fight, or to punish you guys… well. I've fought stronger guys than anyone on your crew and won.

[Luckily for Billy he has no idea how many necks she's snapped just in the month before she got here.]

I don't like people messing with my friends.

[ .. well, that's.. touching. It's not often that someone offers something like this to him, after all. And though it's also just plain handy - which is the only thing he's internally willing to admit to - there is a part of him that is instinctively touched at it all the same. ]

I-- [ He starts, then seems to cut himself off, like he thinks better of what he was about to say.

It's hard to even find the right words, really. Billy looks like he's thinking for a moment before settling on: ]

.. thought I hope it won't have to come to that, that knowledge does make me rest more assuredly. Thank you.

I mean, I hope I don't have to fight either. But you guys deserve better than that, you know? And here, it's - well. We’re only as safe as we make ourselves.

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cw: talk of executions

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