singillatim | Part Two: The Detective

Please ignore Charles nearly walking right into the aforementioned snow drift; even after a month, he's still getting used to the muscle memory required to swiftly avoid objects that he can longer phase through. While the wall and door incidents have decreased significantly, they aren't yet zero.

"Don't think I've meditated a second in my life, mate." That would require being still and quiet - two things he could never quite manage, much to adults' chagrin. "Used to pop on my Walkman whenever Edwin wanted to read a book, or I'd go mad."

He has no idea what a Walkman is, but context provides that it's a distraction, so that's all he needs.

"I'm the same, really. Always did a better job retaining our case work when we were in motion. Either pacing in the office with the bloody file in my hand, or-" a huff of exertion has a wry edge to it. "Or we'd gasbag about it over dinner. Nearly- threw a fork into someone's head once, because I cracked the case at the table."

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The reminiscing earns a fond half-smile. Just six weeks since he left London, and his life there already feels ages away, like something he's trying to grasp through memory.

"What's the weirdest one you've solved?"

It's partially out of curiosity at what Arthur's cases were like, but there's an edge beneath it, almost too eager. The walk to his cabin is uselessly short, and he can already see the intersection with Wolfjaw at the end of the cut-through. Any distraction is welcome.

That gets a short laugh. "Ah, well. That'll be everything that happened with me and John, but that's a long story. And we only really solved that a day or so before I arrived here."

No one crosses through the side strips to get between the streets, obviously, so Arthur makes a point of kicking a hole through the built-up snow that's been partly shovelled off the sidewalk and into their way, so Charles has a lesser chance of stumbling on it. "Everything before that was mostly- missing persons, stolen jewelry. Run-of-the-mill."

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Charles has been avoiding it himself, on his treks away from Arthur's house. Can't have the man following his solitary footprints through the untouched snow. Of course, none of that matters now, and it won't matter again once they get where they're going. He'll just have to worry about Arthur showing up at his door like a probation officer every day.

"Ours aren't far off, really. Missing jewelry, stolen bodies." So, basically the same thing. "We help dead people move on, mostly. Solve all their problems and let them walk into the light. Or make them, if they need a little shove."

The tentacles certainly help, when nasty fuckers don't want to go.

"So that's your world's afterlife, then?" he asks curiously with a glance back. It's genuinely, purely conversational. He just likes learning about other worlds, now he knows they exist. "Heaven and Hell - they're actually real for you. Y-you mentioned it before, as well, being the Orpheus going into Hell for your Edwin."

There's no judgement there, about it obviously being another young man. God only knew the things he'd do to get John back the same way, if he had to.

Charles shrugs, a vague thing with his hands shoved so deep inside his pockets.

"Don't know about Heaven, so much," he admits. "They don't tell you what's next 'til you agree to go. Could be Heaven, could be another life. But Death always tell 'em it's nice, doesn't she?"

And of course she would. She's trying to get them to join her.

"Hell's real for sure, though." In all of its grisly, horrific glory, the stench of blood and rot and sick heavy in the air. It's never quite left his nose. "And he wasn't even meant to be there, either. Bunch of fucking pricks' idea of a prank, summoning a bloody demon."

He's been avoiding the obvious elephant in the room, just because he's not sure if Charles remembers telling him. But he can't ignore the way the pieces are put together at this point without just blatantly ignoring the reality in front of him.

"It must be difficult," he says simply. "Helping people cross over, without lingering long enough that Death catches the two of you as well."

For a moment, Charles doesn't seem to react. His face stays steady, his eyes focused ahead, and he pointedly avoids looking at Arthur.

He does remember, hazy though it is. Slurred words as his feet trudged through snow, fighting pain and exhaustion, too relieved at being heard to take care at what Arthur was hearing. And it's never been some kind of big secret, has it? It's in their bloody business name, for fuck's sake. But there's one glaring difference here, one he didn't take into account when he was being led with desperate hands up to the gathering hall.

Back home, to know Charles was to already know the supernatural. Here, amongst the living, the truth startles, garners pity he doesn't want.

"Haven't been caught in thirty years," he answers, face still carefully blank. He can't let himself think about the fact that now, after all that time, they finally have. If he ever leaves this place, it will be into the clutches of the Lost and Found Department. "Just- just don't say you're sorry. I don't want that shit."

He desperately does; he just doesn't know how to accept it.

He knows that tone all too well. The all-too-familiar rallying cry of I don't want your pity, and there's another lurch of heartbreak that Charles has had to do this all so young.

"It's a fucking awful hand to be dealt," he says instead. His voice is steady, but there's a gentle weight to it, understanding. "You didn't deserve to die, nor to spend thirty years fearing for your afterlife. But I'm... glad, that you have Edwin, and that you've chosen to dedicate yourself to helping people with the time you've gotten."

Over thirty years and Charles never thought that he deserved to die, but... he also never thought that his death was the greatest tragedy, not when he compared himself with so many of their clients, or with Edwin. His death was a drop in an ocean compared to what Edwin went through. And sure, trauma isn't a competition; he's said that himself. But only when it applies to other people's pain.

"Wasn't so bad, really." And it wasn't, not the moment itself. Right up until the end, it hadn't occurred to him that he wouldn't make it. He'd thought he was only having a lie down, and he'd feel better after he rested. "He found me and just... read to me. Waited for it to happen."

Maybe that's why it doesn't feel sad, when he looks back on that night. It isn't dying that he remembers most - it's Edwin.

"Haven't been apart a day since, 'til now."

That gets a bit of a Look, but it's- apparently some form of Wry Paternal Disappointment, nothing particularly scathing. Just a mild are you fucking kidding me sort of look.

"Look, take it from someone who's died multiple times now - just because you got better, that doesn't mean it wasn't still bad. Especially for someone your age."

He doesn't know the exact number, but Charles is definitely a teenager. Something about the attitude is too reminiscent of his own teen years.

Charles' face stays carefully still as he takes in the words, trying to steel against the cold jab they cause. Multiple times, he hears, and he thinks of dank hallways, scraping roars. Shocks of familiar hair and lanky limbs, piled unnaturally. This is about Arthur, not Edwin, but the more he tries to focus on what the man's saying, the more the images flash. Some selfish shithead he is, thinking about what he's seen when Arthur's clearly been through his own hell.

He steps ahead, leading the way faster through the snow. Where the bank shallows towards the end of the cut-through, no footprints appear in his wake.

"It's up here, around the corner."

The trees are too dense to see it at first, but as they round the bend they turn sparser. A slouching screened porch appears, then peeling, mildewed boards, and windows too clouded to see through. Out front, a rusted station wagon sits useless and long-abandoned.

He definitely notices the lack of footsteps, when Charles darts ahead.

There's an odd sense of deja vu to the path, breaking through the forest like this, but it's only when they reach the dilapidated house that Arthur pins what's bothering him about it, and a cold twist throbs in his stomach as his hand unconsciously grabs at his stomach.

The last time he was in an abandoned house in a fucking forest, he got stabbed and bled out, lucky to have had John to have dragged him to safety and gotten to hospital.

It takes conscious effort to push that feeling of trepidation back down, and follow Charles towards the house. "Charles, this is..."

Look he said he wouldn't just Charles for it, but also he's not judging Charles is he? "I'm... not sure this place is safe to live in," he says, a little diplomatically.

Charles prickles at the response, his shoulders hunching in a defensive posture he's well practiced at.

"I've been in it a month. Haven't had no problems yet, have I?"

He hears the whine in his voice, recognizing it with frustration and prickling embarrassment, but the heat behind it is too strong to tamp down. It's the part of him he tries not to look at, tries not to think about, but Arthur's perception was right: no matter how many years Charles exists, he'll never get any older. Not in the way he feels, or the way he acts, or the way his brain works. Not when he's standing here reacting like a brat towards a reasonably concerned adult who's just trying to help.

"I didn't say that," he says evenly. Charles is arcing up, heated by pride and embarrassment, so Arthur has to stay calm and even. "Charles, you are a remarkable young man. Learning how to survive alone is a difficult feat for anyone, especially after thirty years with your partner - and not a day apart. I just..."

He steps into the clearing proper, a little closer to the building rather than threaten to crowd Charles. "I think that based on where we are - it's not a failure to ask for a hand. Especially not when I know how readily you'll give it in turn."

Remarkable, Arthur calls him, and it's the kind of compliment that should make him preen, that he should tuck away in his mind and use to color his self esteem. Instead, something about it just smarts. It sparks off his hard outer shell, and rattles his anxiety further.

No one but Edwin has called him that before. And even coming from Edwin, he's not sure he's ever believed it.

"I'm not asking for a hand 'cause I don't need one," he argues back, pushing forward to stomp up the steps. "I've been eating. I've got a place to sleep. There's really nothing else I need."

The wood doesn't even creak under his feet as he pulls open the rusted screen door. It will nearly bow under Arthur's, should he follow.

"Charles-"

It's not angry it's just disappointed, that Charles was actively missing the point so hard that he was literally hiding in a half-rotted abandoned home about it.

Or - as the wood bows under his weight and a dread chill creeps up his spine, animal instinct that the floor might well collapse at any moment - perhaps more than half.

"You are still human enough to need companionship, a-a community to live in." He follows the boy inside, attention split between Charles and the boards threatening to collapse underfoot. "And unfortunately that means you can't simply haunt the oldest house you can find like a wraith until Euridyce comes and finds you."

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He doubts that heavily, but doesn't want to hear the rebuke he'd surely receive at voicing it. Thirty-five years now that he's been living in a community of two, and he can't simply replace the other half. What he needs can't be found here, or anywhere else that isn't a winding staircase in Hell.

"I don't need to live anywhere, mate." A bitter little joke, utterly humorless. "I've been haunting shit longer than you've been alive."

Whether he's human - back home, or here in Milton - is a different question altogether, and one he hasn't answered yet in all these years.

"What the hell are you trying so hard for, anyway? You've known me, like, two fucking days."

"I'm thirty-four, actually." Which was a stupid comment to make but if Charles is going to make it a bloody dick measuring contest Arthur can play.

(Also he certainly doesn't look it; with his greying temples and vicious scars, there's nearly a whole decade on his shoulders.)

"And I am trying because someone fucking has to. And don't you dare pretend you don't know what that's like, because that is your entire career."

He takes a breath, trying to cool his temper. "I am not in any way disregarding your experience, nor your independence. But you are lonely, and you are miserable."

His jaw tightens for a moment, and then he sighs. "Just like me. And when I'm like that, I know that I make poor decisions." He looks over Charles again, at the unsubtle tension. "I pick fights. Because at least if they hate me for being an ass then they don't pity me for being alone."

The petulant, teenage part of Charles wants to bite back about his age, tell Arthur that he's been walking the Earth as a ghost longer than the man has been alive. That he's existed for half a century now, and doesn't need anyone looking out for him.

No one cared about us, Edwin's voice says in his head, and he pinches his eyes closed against it.

"Everyone here's miserable." He steps into the dim, dusty entryway, shoulders still steeled against Arthur's gaze. "You gonna help all of 'em, too?"

The first room is ostensibly a kitchen. Though some of the chipped, floral dinnerware remains tidy and stacked in the shelves, the majority of the room is in disarray. It's as though time came to a stop in the middle of the previous owner's puttering, and then got tilted on its side, shaking the evidence across every surface. Here and there, a faded piece of the woman's life is obvious: a cursive cake recipe pinned to a decaying corkboard; a plastic pill organizer, half-filled.

Charles hasn't found her ghost, but he's been hesitant to touch the items anyway.

The whole place smells like mildew and rot, and Arthur has to press his mouth tight and swallow to press down the immediate instinct to gag, if not worse.

"Whoever will let me. Yes." There's a quiet sigh as he steps inside with Charles, ignoring the ominous, damp splintering noises beneath his feet. "You cannot defeat it, but you don't have to let it win." He intones it, an obvious quote. "If we let ourselves be miserable, if we don't kick and scream and make ourselves heard, if we go gentle into that good fucking night - then we might as well just go looking for the Darkwalker to finish the job."

He stares down Charles with the merciless intensity of a hunter's sniper. "So why haven't you?"

It's like the confrontation flicks a switch. Hunched shoulders steel, sunken chest tightens, and he turns on his silent heel. There's something different in his face now, almost imperceptible; his lips are too pale, the skin beneath his eyes too dark.

"I'm fucking useless!" They aren't the words he means to say, but once they start to spill out, there's no stopping them. "I wasn't ever good for a bloody thing 'cept getting kicked around, not 'til I was dead. I was stronger, then. I had magic, and- and I had-"

He had Edwin.

"Without all that-" He turns away, wiping a hand down his now-hidden face. "Without all that I'm just a- a victim again. I'm just the stupid kid who couldn't fight back. How's anyone else supposed to rely on me for shit?"

Arthur's breath catches in his throat when Charles whips around and he's changed, just a little, just enough that Arthur can immediately notice the difference. With what limited information he'd gleaned from Charles he'd thought it was an accident - an abused child, perhaps, but a victim of circumstance.

This terrified outburst painted a slightly different picture.

"Because you're trying," he says, and his voice is painfully empathetic. "Because you know what it's like to be the victim, and you don't want to leave anyone else alone to feel like that ever again. And you fight with every fibre of your being to be someone those people can rely on."

And he does, doesn't he? That's the whole thing. Dependable Charles, supportive Charles. Charles, who will shove down his own pain to see someone else smile, who will put himself on the line without a moment's thought. That's who he is, who he's tried to be for the last three decades.

Except, he can only lie down once, here.

He steps into the cramped, cluttered kitchen, back turning fully towards Arthur now, and trudges coldly across the room. The next space was clearly a sitting room. Wallpaper peels behind shelves lined with knick-knacks - most of them angels or cats - and beneath a cracked picture window, a striped sofa bears signs that it's been slept on.

"It ain't much," he mutters, an echo of a phrase he's heard in American films, "but it's home."

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